Bre, I always look forward to reading your posts!! I do make sure I have the time to really hear you. You write so well! I love your story and hate your story all at the same time. I hate the abuse you experienced as a result of religion, and I love your resilience and your will to heal...
I am so damn in awe of you. Medication can be life changing. I hope it offers you some well-deserved support as you navigate through. You deserve it 🤍🤍🤍
In the early part of this blog I was totally relating to you. No, I was never in a cult, but I was raised in a strict Church family. I was very sheltered. I was quite happy, and even when life dealt me one major blow after the other, I was still “fine”. That’s what I was raised to say. Almost all of my 42 aunts/uncles were of the same Church upbringing. And they were always fine also.
After my first major trauma in life I knew I could not say that with any credibility and so I quit Church for a few weeks until I could say it.
When I found myself melancholy and grieving for that chunk of my life that went sideways, I saw a Shrink. He told me what a wonderful organ the brain is. He said I could train it to shut out unwanted thoughts. He was pretty right. A couple months later I was much better!
A lot went sideways in my life but I continued to compartmentalize them so I cold be fine.
Well guess what? Now I’m 73, alone, and I grieve almost daily for the life I wanted but never got. I made bad choices, but then ppl were not honest with me. They led me down unauthentic paths. Bottom line is still the same. I am left quite sad.
Do not let others opinions silence you. Post those drafts and share your truth. That is part of your healing journey. There isn’t anything easy about what you are doing and I stand in awe and admiration as you walk this path. Your candor and humor will serve you well. I love your spunk! And you have the best hair!
Bre, I always look forward to reading your posts!! I do make sure I have the time to really hear you. You write so well! I love your story and hate your story all at the same time. I hate the abuse you experienced as a result of religion, and I love your resilience and your will to heal...
Much respect and admiration....
Thank you for such kind words, Colin. I appreciate the fact you take the time to truly hear what I am saying. Your support means a lot. 🩷
You have suffered enough. Please continue to do everything to be the real you. 🫂
Thank you🩷
Good luck on your journey. I wish you well. You are extremely brave
Thank you ever so kindly. 🩷
I am so damn in awe of you. Medication can be life changing. I hope it offers you some well-deserved support as you navigate through. You deserve it 🤍🤍🤍
Thank you so much. It is a privilege to know you. 🩷
In the early part of this blog I was totally relating to you. No, I was never in a cult, but I was raised in a strict Church family. I was very sheltered. I was quite happy, and even when life dealt me one major blow after the other, I was still “fine”. That’s what I was raised to say. Almost all of my 42 aunts/uncles were of the same Church upbringing. And they were always fine also.
After my first major trauma in life I knew I could not say that with any credibility and so I quit Church for a few weeks until I could say it.
When I found myself melancholy and grieving for that chunk of my life that went sideways, I saw a Shrink. He told me what a wonderful organ the brain is. He said I could train it to shut out unwanted thoughts. He was pretty right. A couple months later I was much better!
A lot went sideways in my life but I continued to compartmentalize them so I cold be fine.
Well guess what? Now I’m 73, alone, and I grieve almost daily for the life I wanted but never got. I made bad choices, but then ppl were not honest with me. They led me down unauthentic paths. Bottom line is still the same. I am left quite sad.
Do not let others opinions silence you. Post those drafts and share your truth. That is part of your healing journey. There isn’t anything easy about what you are doing and I stand in awe and admiration as you walk this path. Your candor and humor will serve you well. I love your spunk! And you have the best hair!
I sincerely hope the medication helps you but please be careful of Ativan. It is addicting
It is for emergencies only :)